In my head I want to be a perfectionist, in my heart I want to be H.A.P.P.Y.
When reality sets in and I find myself falling short of what I perceive as "perfection", for some reason I think throwing in the towel seems the best option. One of my biggest goals this year is to appreciate life and live it to its fullest. And by saying "fullest" I don't mean perfection, I mean gratitude. I choose to be thankful for the gifts God grants me. I choose to see the beauties that surround me. I choose to believe that those who love me do so without expectation or regret. I choose to express my love more freely. I desire to love the woman I am becoming. I say the woman I am "becoming" rather then the woman I "am", because right now, I am a work in progress. There is a part of me that once was, that I feel is no more. I long to find this being. There is a part of me that "is" that I desire to become "was". I promise, I know what I'm trying to say, even if my laptop doesn't know how to type it!
From this day forward, I commit to myself and to my family to be the best me there is. I don't promise to be "The Best" but rather "My Best", because when I fall short, which I know I will, I need to know that I'm still ok. Farewell to bad attitudes. So long to negative thoughts. Adios to hiding or running away.
Join me on this journey. With head held high and a knowledge and vision of who I can become, I accept the challenge..."Be strong and of a good courage."