Sunday, February 28, 2010

outdated and updated!!

I honestly don't know where all the time goes and how/why it has to go by so fast. It's so frustrating to have many good intentions and not follow through on so many things. I love's about the only journaling I do anymore. And yet it's weeks and months before I take the time to write. I know we all have 24 hours in a day, and for the most part I feel that my hours are spent wisely. However, so many times at the end of the day, I see a sink full of dishes, wet clothes in the washer and dry ones-actually, dry wrinkly ones yet to be removed from the dryer. There's that pile lying at the foot of my bed waiting to be folded and placed. I find toothpaste remains on my bathroom countertops and in my sinks. Dirty socks, wet towels, and last nights pajamas on the bathroom rug. Dried peanut butter on the knife I just pulled out from "clean" dishes. My biomed and history homework of late have taken back seat to 6th grade plays and Jr. High Registrations. Pinewood Derby's and math reviews. Attempts at walking and of course ear infections.

This is my life...and this is my love!!

Certain events have taken place this month, which have given me the opportunity to reflect on those things which are really important in life. These moments have forced me to contemplate my knowledge and belief in my Savior and in my Heavenly Father's plan for me. I always feel "safe" with the testimony I have, until something comes along which requires more of me. This is not to say that I doubt or question those things I know to be true...rather it is to say that I have to step off the "comfort boat" and make a conscious decision, shall I say, be proactive in those things I know and believe to be true.

I appreciate the moments in life where an event or series of events, allows me to transition from the state of "I believe, " to the declaration of, "I KNOW."

My family is my world to me. They are my breath. My sunrise. They are the reason I wake in the morning and my comfort in the shadows of night. Jason is my best friend. He is a man of integrity. He is naturally a happy person who loves to laugh. Often times I misunderstand his "teasing", but I know these are his expressions of love. He is a man of faith. His knowledge and understanding of the gospel is impressive to me, however, more impressive is his testimony. Jason with all my heart I love you. I am in love with you.

Taylorann, Karson, and all my dreams I could never have imagined the joy motherhood would bring to me. It's impossible to picture my life without you. I'm not particularly happy that you are growing so quickly, but I am indeed impressed with who you are growing up to be. May I be blessed with God' grace to treat you as you deserve to be treated. To teach you those things that will protect, guide and influence you for good in this life. You have been entrusted in our care from a loving Father in Heaven, and it is my hope that I will always be worthy of your love. Thank you for teaching me lessons of forgiveness, sacrifice, patience, unconditional love, service, gratitude, and patience, (oh wait...I said that already!) My sweet babies...I love you! Yesterday, today and forever!